Sacred (very temporary) Silence…

Those early morning moments.... we already had his through-the-night and his always-4:00 am feedings... now the morning is slowly beginning to break he’s beginning to stretch in that best-ever-baby-stretch way, but the other children are all still asleep. I relish this bit of precious silence, when it’s just me awake, and a bustling day lies [...]

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Down (and in) to Earth…

I love when things are clean. Fresh linens, spotless floor, all trash taken out; crisp, clear water for swimming or dipping in toes, new car (or in my case, the two dollar “new car smell” tree we can afford), crystal clear windows, pleasant aromas that don’t involve diapers, perfect counter tops and equally clean stove [...]

The Baby Who Saved My Life… A Conclusion

I should have gone home that Friday night or Saturday....  I should have been enjoying Easter Sunday with our Pascha basket and our wonderful community of friends... I should have been trying on those new little newborn outfits and hats and taking pictures.... I should have been cuddling him that whole time, as normal births [...]

The Baby Who Saved My Life… “The Day the Sun Rose”

They kept going back and forth... “yes, we can transfer you, no we can’t...” The “can’t” and the “you’ll stay here forever” seemed more powerful with each cancelling of letting me get to a regular hospital room, and each time they changed their minds because of my condition, my heart sunk further. But the “can’t” [...]

The Baby Who Saved My Life, Part VII… “Saturday, In The Tomb”

Tick... tock... tick........... tooooocckkk ...... Second by second, I focused on the second hand of the hospital room clock. If I looked away from it for the slightest second, it seemed to jump up and down, or the second hand would skip half a minute... I was hallucinating. I could barely talk at this point, [...]